Thursday, June 22, 2006

Reunions? Hmmmmm

Well, I made it through reunion season and the bittersweet was mostly sweet. Especially sweet was reconnecting with a guy at my grad school reunion and really hitting it off. We're taking things slowly (the cliched hallmark of all grown-*ss relationships), but as long as I've been single, what's the hurry anyway? Crossing the border into 40 kind of freed me from the tyranny of life goal deadlines and the biological clock. It's like the relief you get when the buzzer rings, your time is up, and yet you're still here. Now the future is an open book... I had a second reunion, with a performing arts group to which I belonged in college. It was the 25th anniversary of the group's founding. It was an awesome time, but why didn't I feel successful enough when former groupmates asked me what I had been up to during the past 18 years? It was like all of the confidence and self-assurance I have gained over nearly 2 decades of personal and professional accomplishments instantly melted away and I was an insecure, awkward sophomore again who still hadn't settled on a major and didn't have a boyfriend. Ewwww...I need to leave her back in the '80s, with her pink hair and her dry-mouthed awkwardness, once and for all.

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